A special person leaves to be with God

by Tammy Hall Parker on Wednesday, December 1, 2010 at 12:06am

On November 26,2010 our mother,granny,great grandmother and great great grandmother left all her suffering and pain behind at 6:07 in the morning to go be with God and all the family she has missed for so long. She became extremely weak only a couple of weeks before this happened but told me she was tired of living without any quality in her life. She hated to be waited on because she was always the care giver in the family. She was special to each of us in different ways. But she was the rock that held the mountain together. I just can speak for this household and how it has been for us the last couple of weeks and especially the last week. I have children both grown and young that played a part in taking care of granny. Now I have one that will not cry and tries to take care of everyone else, I have one that cries over everything. Zach is just quiet as usual he keeps things to himself. I hurt in my bones I thought it may be arthritis but went to the doctor and he said I was fine except for some swelling in my feet, and fatigue. He said the hurting was from grieving. I knew I would cry, that my heart would hurt, that I would probably sleep alot even though sleep is filled with nightmares about that morning, but I had never heard of bone pain. Poor Jeff lost what he considered to be a mother to him and he has had to try and grieve and take care of us. I know it is taking a toll on him but I don't know what I would do without him. Bless his heart he has been so busy he even went to work today and it was his off day. He was always worried how we would be able to take mother someday passing away while living with us because everywhere we looked there would be a memory, but I think in some ways that is good. They say there are several steps to the grieving process and they don't come in any special order other than the final being acceptance. We are fortunate that the person that performed the ceremony was not only a family friend he was also mothers friend. Even though he suffered a loss also he was still able to perform a service I think mother would have wanted. She wasn't a person who wanted a big fuss made when she went home. Everytime she heard of someone passing away she would call me and Alyssa in and tell us just how she wanted things and who she wanted to do what. It never changed but she wanted us to be sure we didn't forget. She was in her right mind up until the end when she couldn't stand up at all. It was nice to be able to talk to her and relive memories for all of us. Each night we would take turns on different nights talking to her and making her laugh. At times when things got bad she would get on to me about making her eat exactly like she always did, same voice, and the same sentence but would finally give in. Alot of this may not seem like it is about mom, but if you knew her you know that she would consider this to be a fuss made over her. We all loved her, we will all miss her, and she will remain in our hearts forever. God has a very special person with him now and all of the questions she always wanted answered he has answered for her. She can finally dance which she always loved to do. She can enjoy family and friends that passed on before her and met her to show her the way home. She can look down and watch over all of us and we will do our best to make her proud. Most importantly all the pain and all the things that have caused her problems have all gone away and she is young,vibrant,and still as beautiful as always. This family has two very important things that will happen in the next year that she was looking forward to being here for but God had other plans. She will still be there but it will be in spirit instead of in person. But we have to remember to include her and know she is still there with us.
We all love you mom, we will miss feeling your arms around us, we will miss the goodnight kisses, but we know we will see you again. We will do all we can to make you proud of us and will always ask ourselves when we have a problem we can't solve,"what would mom say for us to do?" Don't worry about us we will be fine in time. Enjoy where you are and tell everyone we have lost that we love and miss them too. It's good to know you are with a special someone that Jeff and I never got the chance to meet. Give them a kiss for us and let them know they are thought about often with love. Just as we will always think of you. Once again we love you still, this is not goodbye this is see you later when the time is right. Goodnight mom.