New Year, New Me
by Tammy Hall Parker on Thursday, December 30, 2010 at 4:11am
O.K. so New Years is suppose to be a clean slate and a way to change the old and start out fresh and new. I think for the first time in my life I am going to try this tradition. I always listened to other people say things like how they were going to lose weight, quit smoking, spend more time with friends and family, exercise more...but I look at some of those people and realize they may have just thought they could make those promises to themselves and keep them. Don't get me wrong I don't want anyone getting mad here but statistics show most people have broken or forgotten these things by the end of the first week.
I don't want to make big resolutions that I probably will not do or keep up with. I want to get some things done that I have always wanted. My knee is really having trouble. I know that sounded like it didn't involve me...but the first thing I want to do is try and restore some of its good health. Oh how I would love to be able to get down in the floor to clip coupons or just get down on my knees to find the ball the dog rolled under the furniture. That brings me to the second resolution...don't take the little things for granted. I've never been big on taking pictures just randomly of my family. This is definitly going to change. I got a small camera for Christmas and I'm learning to use it. Look out folks I will be in a livingroom or kitchen near you soon. I want pictures of the girls just hanging out. Jeff just walking through the door. Even the little crazy things they all do. I don't make a pledge to get them in an album that is to much to hope for right now, but just having them is the important thing. Most of you don't know I have a phobia about going places by myself. I don't know how this got started it just kind of happened. Well the kids are growing up and will be moving on so I guess that is one of the little things I have to get over. So I am going to try slow with running short errands and just going for rides. I will do this though when someone is here to come get me in case I flip out and can't get back alone. Oh here is where I should mention that when I say by myself I can follow people and it is not as bad I mean you're not really alone if someone is there to catch you. Important things are coming up in my children's lives this year. Alyssa has been offered a large scholarship and it is probably the first of many. This is really making me think of where she may be in what has turned into a few short months. She has also been offered at trip with People to People Student Ambassadors to go to Italy, France and Greece this summer. She went with them to Australia when she was 10 and had so much fun she still talks about it today. If she goes it will mean as soon as she returns she will be off to the college of her choice. Then there is Zach getting married to the sweetest person I've ever met. Her name is Beth and they will be married in June. He will be moving out and starting a new and exciting life himself. Just the two of them starting a long journey that every turn will take them in their own special direction, but they will make those turns together to make it their personal family journey. Kelcy will still be at home, but she is a free spirit and you never know with her which way she will travel from year to year or even day to day. Jeff will keep being Jeff and doing his thing with work and more work, with the good Lord willing to keep all of this going.
So now you see the new me is sort of like I'm going in reverse more than moving forward I guess. I started out this journey with two good knees, lots of baby pictures, and going places alone and doing things that people never thought I would accomplish. But I will have a wonderful man by my side that I can grow old with as the other people I love move on and make their lives their own. He will be here to catch me when I trip and we will be here to catch the others when they need us, just like when they were babies taking their first steps. I guess you could say I'm looking for my balance all over again. I will never be the same, some things just change you, but I will try and make the best for the New Year. I'll read this next year and see how things went.
I don't want to make big resolutions that I probably will not do or keep up with. I want to get some things done that I have always wanted. My knee is really having trouble. I know that sounded like it didn't involve me...but the first thing I want to do is try and restore some of its good health. Oh how I would love to be able to get down in the floor to clip coupons or just get down on my knees to find the ball the dog rolled under the furniture. That brings me to the second resolution...don't take the little things for granted. I've never been big on taking pictures just randomly of my family. This is definitly going to change. I got a small camera for Christmas and I'm learning to use it. Look out folks I will be in a livingroom or kitchen near you soon. I want pictures of the girls just hanging out. Jeff just walking through the door. Even the little crazy things they all do. I don't make a pledge to get them in an album that is to much to hope for right now, but just having them is the important thing. Most of you don't know I have a phobia about going places by myself. I don't know how this got started it just kind of happened. Well the kids are growing up and will be moving on so I guess that is one of the little things I have to get over. So I am going to try slow with running short errands and just going for rides. I will do this though when someone is here to come get me in case I flip out and can't get back alone. Oh here is where I should mention that when I say by myself I can follow people and it is not as bad I mean you're not really alone if someone is there to catch you. Important things are coming up in my children's lives this year. Alyssa has been offered a large scholarship and it is probably the first of many. This is really making me think of where she may be in what has turned into a few short months. She has also been offered at trip with People to People Student Ambassadors to go to Italy, France and Greece this summer. She went with them to Australia when she was 10 and had so much fun she still talks about it today. If she goes it will mean as soon as she returns she will be off to the college of her choice. Then there is Zach getting married to the sweetest person I've ever met. Her name is Beth and they will be married in June. He will be moving out and starting a new and exciting life himself. Just the two of them starting a long journey that every turn will take them in their own special direction, but they will make those turns together to make it their personal family journey. Kelcy will still be at home, but she is a free spirit and you never know with her which way she will travel from year to year or even day to day. Jeff will keep being Jeff and doing his thing with work and more work, with the good Lord willing to keep all of this going.
So now you see the new me is sort of like I'm going in reverse more than moving forward I guess. I started out this journey with two good knees, lots of baby pictures, and going places alone and doing things that people never thought I would accomplish. But I will have a wonderful man by my side that I can grow old with as the other people I love move on and make their lives their own. He will be here to catch me when I trip and we will be here to catch the others when they need us, just like when they were babies taking their first steps. I guess you could say I'm looking for my balance all over again. I will never be the same, some things just change you, but I will try and make the best for the New Year. I'll read this next year and see how things went.
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