There are days in your life that you wish you could crawl back into bed and start the day over in lets say a week from now. Today has been one of those days. Not a bad day really just one of those days when things are off. I have a feeling I should be doing something really important and then I begin to wonder, why? No one is going to stop by here and offer to come inside and do an interview for 20/20. I haven't witnessed a murder, as far as I know all the nice people in the neighborhood haven't been digging any deep holes in the yard or hauling strange things away in the middle of the night in pick up trucks. Without knocking out walls that I can't put back up there is not alot left in the way of changing the house around. Yard work is out of the questions since we are expecting a monsoon in the next two days. Besides I'm getting old and my arthritis just tells me one word. NO! I think I have just found one thing exciting though looking out the window. Around here me and mom would always look outside everyday and look at the very tops of some trees across the street and when they would turn red it would take no time at all before you would start to see leaves on trees and the grass turning green. Hotdog today is that day!! Those tops are red and Spring has got to be on its way! Of course every other day feels like Spring this year. I can still dream that these trees have more sense than some of the other plants that were just waiting to be the first to bust out with flowers and color. Afterall the trees I'm talking about have no color except at the very top and when it is gone there are only green leaves left. If you didn't take the time to look up you wouldn't even know the color had ever been there. Maybe that is my little lesson today. Always look up. I used to lay on the grass and look up at the sky all Summer at the clouds passing and would just relax and have no worries. I remember sitting beside at tree trunk with a bologna sandwich covered in mustard and eating chips with some cold kool aid, just watching the wind blow the leaves.
Life has gotten so busy. Why??? All I can really think of is the fact our parents believed you only bought things if you needed them and could pay cash for them. You didn't throw anything away if it could be fixed cheaper. Remember the key phrase is fixed cheaper not more conviently. You only ate out maybe once a month when everyone loaded up for a family drive on a pretty Sunday morning and headed out to no place in particular. You never bought junk food at the store because that was a waste of money. If you were young and behaved really well sometimes, not everytime you would get some little something they were selling at the register.
Everyone now wants everything they want, not necessarily need. I admit to being guilty of that. I think making the change of buying nothing on credit is a pretty good start to reverseing a bad habit. I would like to have a hot tub, but I'll settle for a nice little garden of vegetables that I can work in. I would like to have a bigger kitchen, but really why? My kids are growing up and moving out on their own so all I really would need is a small table to add to the arrangement I have now, so I would have some baking space. A larger oven if it is possible would be nice to lessen the time I spent in the kitchen when I needed to cook large meals. Besides the one I have is so old it is starting to fall apart and it will be cheaper to replace than to repair.
Starting today I am going to begin to declutter my life. I have gone about things the wrong way all these years and maybe its not to late to make changes and still show my kids how good things come to those who wait. Patience has never been one of my strong points I don't expect that to change over night but I can work on it. God will give me what I need. Just as He always made sure that my family had what they needed when I was growing up. We didn't have the biggest house around, or the fanciest clothes. But there was always food on the table. Money in the bank for emergencies and enough left out of the paycheck in case someone got sick or had a "need". There were times when I wondered why we couldn't have all the things my friends had but when I look back they were happy then and I see them now and they don't seem as happy. I sometimes wonder if it is because they never had to want so they never learned to appreciate. I know I probably accumulate clutter and give in to my children because I didn't have that luxury growing up. But that really isn't doing anyone any favors.
Today I start a list of needs and a list of wants. Lets see which list is longer and which one wins.
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