I went to the doctor this morning to find out why my head is killing me. I walked in and I was the only person in the waiting room. Wow! How amazing can this day get? I am the only one here and this should be a breeze. Right, like that was going to happen. In case I haven't revealed this before I am becoming a germafobe. It bothers me a little when someone in the house is sick but let me sit in a doctors office with people that are wheezing, coughing or look like they are just this side of the pearly gates and I freak. Today I came in contact with all of the above. A woman walked in with her little girl and they both looked like they were there to try out for a zombie movie. I don't mean to sound ugly it's just that the little girl on any other day I am sure was a very beautiful bouncy 5 or 6 year old. Today she had pale skin, dark circles under her eyes and a blank stare. Then two men walked in with an elderly couple that I overheard to be in their 90's. That isn't scary but when both were in the night cloths and you could hear wheezing from across the room you know this wasn't a routine visit. Now let's give you the one that topped my day off. Elderly lady in a moo-moo comes through the door and she is panting from the exertion it took her to get from the sidewalk to the waiting room. She lays across the desk to sign in and informs the receptionist that she has been throwing up for 3 days and it's not getting better. All I can do at this point is pray. God please don't let this woman sit next to me. I don't know if God was testing me or if Satan filled the waiting room but you guessed it...she sat right next to me. I found out a lot about myself in the 20 minutes I sat in the room with these people. 1. I do have compassion and feel for others that are sick. 2. I don't like the person I am becoming and have to change. 3. I can't hold my breath for 20 minutes.
Let's address look closer at these things. As for number one, when the elderly couple walked in together my first thought is how sad they looked and when I heard, what I understood to be their sons, arguing about having to be there with them I wanted to help out and make them feel better. Here they were old and sick with sons that could do nothing more than complain. Wake up guys! These are the people that raised you. They wiped your runny nose, worked hard to put food on the table and deserve better than you are giving them now.
As for 2. There was a time that I wouldn't think twice about reaching out to help someone that was as sick as the second lady that sat beside me. I was thinking about this as I sat in the exam room waiting on the doctor and heard a commotion in the hallway. The nurses were rushing to find a room to put this lady in because she had started throwing up again in the waiting room and was afraid she was going to pass out. Why had my fear of catching something kept me from asking the nurse to take her next instead of me? Then I had to ask myself a tough question. Would God be happy with the way I had acted today? I had to give the honest answer and it was, no. As a christian God would have wanted me to put others needs above my own. He must have looked at the way I acted today as selfish. I am ashamed of the way I behaved and from this point on I am going to try and make an effort to change.
As for my headaches they are due to tension and learning to relax a little more will solve that problem. If you are wondering about number 3. don't. I did try to hold my breath as much as I could, then I noticed that the elderly man sitting across from me kept staring at me as though I needed a doctor worse than he did. With those two men as sons though he had probably seen his share of someone holding their breath to get their way. :)
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